Hi everyone! I know it has been a long time since my last time. I just realized in fact that I have not written anything as of this year. There has been a lot going on in my life for the last 7 months. I am going to dive right back in and bring you straight into my poem. But let me start off by saying that I had a different title for this poem but then I changed it as of today. It is named after a word I just learned from my former therapist who gave me this word when I shared the following poem with her. When I looked up what it means, I know that it ties into exactly what I am talking about. Before I share this poem I will share what it means. This is the definition according to Merriam-Webster “having or marked by prescience : having foreknowledge : characterized by foresight.”
This poem is about an ex I ran into after 2-3 years of no contact at farmer’s market, not only once or twice but three times. I do not think that it is a coincidence any more. Let us call him G for short (I have told some people I am close with this story). Before I share the poem let me share a quote and then I promise I will share this poem with you all. Judy Belmont says “Forgive yourself for not having the foresight to know what now seems obvious in hindsight.” In other words, do not be so hard on yourself for the obvious signs you should have seen before. Here is the poem as promised.
Prescient
You piqued my interest from day one,
But I did not want to ruin anything.
Girlfriends, situationships and friendships
Came and went. Through it all we were
Still there for each other. We flirted right
On the line, not quite crossing that line.
Then it changed all in one night. You were
The comfort I was missing in my life.
We went from strangers to friends to
Something more and now back to
Strangers again. Running into you years
Later brought old fuzzy memories back.
Eyes that skip right over mine like we did
Not have a past. It looks like you moved on
And I hope for both, especially for her
That you do not hurt nor deceive anyone else.
In the end I cannot hate you forever
And in my heart hope that you are happy.
I deserve my happy ending without you.